It's not a bad car. It's the newest car we've ever had. It STILL has under 100,000 miles, and that's saying something for us. It was also a gift, and we are incredibly thankful for it.
And yet, ever since we've had this car, we've been pouring money into it.
In fact, this is how it works:
- We end up saving a lot of money.
- Something happens with the car.
- We take it in.
- The repairs cost almost exactly as much as we had just saved.
Elliott and I are trying our hardest. We don't make a lot of money (the realities of ministry and support-raising), but we live frugally. We don't spend needlessly, we don't rack up credit card debt, we give to our church and other organizations, and we are trying -- desperately -- to save, both for ourselves and our children.
But it feels like whatever we do, our best efforts are in vain. And all because of a car.
Every time it happens, I feel defeated.
But then I remember -- am I putting my trust in a car -- in a bank account -- in a safety net?
Or am I trusting God?
I say I'm trusting God, but most of the time, I think I'm putting my trust in these others things.
So. God is in control, as always. He's showing me that. Big time.
Alright, God. I trust You. I trust You to take care of our finances and our family. We'll continue to do our own part and be responsible. I trust that somehow -- in some miraculous way yet again -- that You will provide for our every need when the need arises.
(...but maybe You could go a little easy on the car for a while?...)